This is Me// part two

 T H I S   I S   M  E

~ This is me, a series. This series is meant to invite others to have a safe place to share about the thoughts that flood their brain.. To come take a seat at the table. To share about who they are, and who’s they are~ 

  Kailey is a sweet friend and teammate of mine. She so deeply embodies the love of Christ. She is intentional, and kind. She is living joy! Today I invited her to take a seat at the table and share the things on her heart. This is Kailey:

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  Hey everyone, I’m Kailey!! I’m an 18 year old girl from a pretty small town called barboursville, west virginia. I love people, creation, coffee, and I’m truly in love with Jesus. It’s honestly taken me a long time to get to that point in my relationship with the Lord, and I still have a lot to learn, trust me. But I wouldn’t want it any other way. I love that everyday I spend with my Father is another day to go deeper with Him. It’s another opportunity to look more and more like Him. How beautiful is that? 

   My dad was a pastor. I have literally grown up in the church. I was probably only a few weeks old when I went to my first church service. That was my life. It was everything I knew. I can even remember the first time I felt the presence of the Lord. I think I was 4, and my parents had taken me and my brother to a conference called “Aldersgate”. I vividly remember dancing around during worship with this purple and pink ribbon my mom had bought me. I genuinely felt so free. I often go back to the moment in my mind. However, even though I knew the Lord and I claimed to be a Christian, I never really fully grasped the idea of what a relationship with Him looked like. I think since I was so used to going to church and hearing about Jesus, I almost didn’t feel the need to dive deeper into who the Lord was. And specifically who he was to me. 

   I’m not sure why I’m saying all of this. Maybe to just give some background story of my life and my walk with the Lord. Anyways, the more I came to know the Lord and the more I desired to get to know Him, the more my life was changed. More recently, everyday for the past couple weeks something the Lord keeps bringing me back to is the fact that only He can satisfy me. If you haven’t heard the song “only you” by Beau Maddox, I’m listening to it as I write this and it is literally my life haha! It’s talking about just that, how Jesus is the only one who can satisfy the longings of my life and the only one who can satisfy my soul. I’ve always known that, but it’s really just been head knowledge. It took me leaving literally everything and everyone I was familiar with for me to really understand the significance of that. That the Lord is the only thing I need in order to be satisfied. The only thing. If I had nothing else or no one else in this life other than Jesus, I would have everything I need. 

   I think it’s really cool, my relationship with the Lord. The fact that I’ve never physically seen Him, and yet I am completely in love with Him and all I want to do with my life is use it to glorify Him. I think it’s beautiful that He is the only one who can always, and I mean always, be with me. I think it’s amazing that I can feel Him. That I can feel him looking at me and smiling. And that He is not only like that with me, but with you too!! I would never want to live for anyone else. 

   I don’t know who all is reading this, and I don’t need to. But, I just want to tell you something before I finish up this blog if that’s okay. You, yes you, move the heart of God. He loves you so deeply. You are His masterpiece. I can literally picture the Lord standing in front of you, looking into your eyes, seeing every single inch of who you are, and saying, “child, I love you. you are my prized possession. I would do anything for you. no matter what your life looks like right now. I just want you to know that I see you. I see you sweet child of mine. and I love you.” Wow, does the Lord love you so, so much. It’s unable to be comprehended or compared to anything on this earth. The more I know Him the more I love Him. And the more I love Him the more I can share that love with others, like you. 

   That was a little glimpse into my brain and the way I think about things. The way I think about the Lord and the way I think about His children. If I could make you believe just one thing it would be that Jesus is so deeply in love with you. I want the whole earth to know that. Including you! So, thank you for sticking with my, sort of scattered, sort of messy, thoughts. This is me, kailey. A (kind of) small town girl, who loves and is loved by the Father. That’s all I have for now!! I hope you have a great day! 

-kailey <3

Check out pt 1 to the series! 

Sydney